I’ve been working on my eating habits for the last two weeks. It’s been going well, but it’s not easy. I remember in the beginning I was sort of bitchy. After a few days, that gave way to a general feeling of somber gloom.
I made a lot of mistakes too. When I worked out in my carpeted tv-room, I figured it was okay not to wear shoes (heh heh…). I realized the error of my ways when both knees started hurting. Now I’m wearing shoes, and luckily the pain disappeared almost instantly.
Most importantly, I’ve realized in the last two weeks, how much I had been eating since last Fall…and drinking! I mean, I was eating A LOT! Snacking on food at work, snacking on food after work, dessert after dinner, wine after dessert – almost every night.
These habits formed so insidiously, and I didn’t even notice it until I started…well, eating the way I was supposed to be eating.
I’m really grateful that I found my friend/coach Heather to help me through this. She has a nice group of people online, and we’re all cheering each other on as we go through this journey together.
The other thing I’ve been thinking is that for a long time, I was really looking outward to find inspiration, answers, success. But just changing my habits has forced me to sort of look inward. There were moments where I was just sitting there, realizing that I would probably be stuffing my face with something, and instead, I had to do something else. So I would do just that, as mundane as it might have been. But why did I spend all that time eating in the first place? Perhaps I was eating out of boredom, or eating to relax, to decompress. Eating to feel good. I’m still figuring things out, but it feels like I’m on the right track at least.
In the meantime, I’m getting ready for a couple of fun craft shows in May. Sales have been good – both in shows and online – I don’t know where it’s coming from, but I sure am thankful!! Here are a few items I just dyed last night.